Just a few thoughts of mine.
Forget dancing in the moonlight, dance in the daylight. Let people see the free spirit inside, let them see the joy of an unbound life, let them envy the freedom of being you, let them hate and detest that which they are too cowardly to be themselves, yet desire to be. Let them envy your sanity and lust after your insanity.
Let them laugh and mock, for they are the joke and you are the punchline! They laugh not because they find you funny, the laugh because they don’t get it!
Be bizarre, be unusual, be odd, be strange, be weird, be that which stands out!
If people aren’t curious, impressed or afraid, you aren’t trying hard enough!
I’m done with normal. I’m odd, weird and unusual and totally rock it!!!
People come into our lives for a reason, sometimes we don’t even really understand why. My heart is that of a free spirit and wanderer, I have had many come into my life, some have stayed and some have moved on or maybe I moved on.
I have had a few relationships in my life and now being single, I see that they all had meaning and added something to my life, and I hope I added something to theirs as well.
I am a hard person to figure out at times and though my light shines, it shines alone in the dark. But I hope that whatever light I shine it will show someone the way.
I feel everything deeply and not everyone can understand or appreciate that. I see things differently as well and not everyone has or understands my vision. What I see and feel ties into that which I do, my writing, philosophizing and sharing whatever thoughts or stories as they come to me.
There is much I need to do and it requires me to be alone at times to focus. I am alone, but not really lonely as I have many in my life that touch my heart daily. Many of you have included me into your lives as well and it has been appreciated and I have enjoyed my time with you.
Now I must journey this path before me alone in heart, thought and soul, but that which I do will be shared with all and whatever message I am meant to deliver will be there for you to see.
I am reaching deeper into my heart and finding that which has been lost for so long…me. Dormant skills have come to the surface and awakened once again and my life is becoming more fulfilling as I journey forward with all that I feel I need to do.
Maybe one day one will see the light who is meant to follow it and come, but today I shine brightly and live as I feel I should.
I may journey alone, but I am not alone in my journey.
“Q: …We wanted to see if you had the ability to expand your mind and your horizons. And for one brief moment, you did.
PICARD: When I realized the paradox.
Q: For that one fraction of a second, you were open to options you had never considered. That is the exploration that awaits you. Not mapping stars and studying nebulae, but charting the unknowable possibilities of existence.”
Star Trek The Next Generation – All Good Things
I small snippet of my favorite episode of STTNG. It has always been an inspiration. It, in my eyes, is about how the present and future can be affect by the past and you must deal with the destructiveness of the past to save your future. It showed how everything, past, present and future is connected.
For most of my life I was always there for someone else and many times I lost myself because of this. I never got to see who or what I was or explore my life to its potential. I was the sacrifice for someone else’s agenda or goal. My life was taken from me, now I’m taking it back!
This means removing and dealing with things that had or have a negative impact on my life. Removing people from my life that were unhealthy and bad influences. To finally set myself free and heal.
This has been my journey, dealing with destructive issues of my past to save my present and future. To experience that one brief moment of realization of all the possibilities of my life. To see what my life can really be and to experience and explore so much more of life. To open my mind to options I never even considered. To live!
That is the exploration, the journey, that awaits me!
What makes you happy, do that.
What brings adventure to your life, do that.
What heals your heart, do that.
What brings peace to your soul, do that.
But be warned, you can’t have happiness without sorrow, you can’t have adventure without risk, you can’t have healing without pain, and you can’t have peace without turmoil.
But still, do that for it is worth all you experience to get there.
The Final Transmission
My life has always been like clay, buried deep in muck, all polluted and formless, but over time I find my life cleaning up and the dirt and pollution that affected me wash away.
Clay when pulled from the ground, processed and cleaned, can then be sued to make many things and can take many forms. It’s all up to the artist and how he sees to form and mold it.
The clay is my life and I mold it, form it and process as I want to see it become. Each day a little more forms and the life I am building slowly starts to appear. I decide the shape and form of what my life will take.
I am the artist and my life is the masterpiece that I create!