Category Archives: chance

Neal’s Quotes

Just a few thoughts of mine.

Forget dancing in the moonlight, dance in the daylight. Let people see the free spirit inside, let them see the joy of an unbound life, let them envy the freedom of being you, let them hate and detest that which they are too cowardly to be themselves, yet desire to be. Let them envy your sanity and lust after your insanity.

Let them laugh and mock, for they are the joke and you are the punchline! They laugh not because they find you funny, the laugh because they don’t get it!

 

Be bizarre, be unusual, be odd, be strange, be weird, be that which stands out!

If people aren’t curious, impressed or afraid, you aren’t trying hard enough!

 

I’m done with normal. I’m odd, weird and unusual and totally rock it!!!

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I Live a Life

I don’t choose a life, I live one.  Each day I see an opportunity to not only make a difference in the lives of others, but in my own life.

Each day I look for the chance to do something unplanned and off the wall.  Sometimes others surprise me, sometimes I surprise myself.  I will plan something, but am ready for those plans to change at a moments notice.

I live my life like the wind at times.  While I stay grounded and plan for things that need planning, I am not afraid to change other plans as I go and do something far greater than I originally expected.

In the midst of my fears, anxiety and depression there is a tremendous amount of discovery and courage that has allowed me to face all of my fears and worries.  Even being terrified of water, yet there I am body surfing in the Gulf.  The fear of not living is the worst one of all and that fear I will defeat.

I live my life, I find my own path and if no path is set, I make one.

I am a leaf in the wind and never know where I will land next!

My Trek – That One Brief Moment

“Q: …We wanted to see if you had the ability to expand your mind and your horizons. And for one brief moment, you did.
PICARD: When I realized the paradox.
Q:  For that one fraction of a second, you were open to options you had never considered. That is the exploration that awaits you. Not mapping stars and studying nebulae, but charting the unknowable possibilities of existence.”
Star Trek The Next Generation – All Good Things

I small snippet of my favorite episode of STTNG.  It has always been an inspiration.  It, in my eyes, is about how the present and future can be affect by the past and you must deal with the destructiveness of the past to save your future.  It showed how everything, past, present and future is connected.

For most of my life I was always there for someone else and many times I lost myself because of this.  I never got to see who or what I was or explore my life to its potential.  I was the sacrifice for someone else’s agenda or goal.  My life was taken from me, now I’m taking it back!

This means removing and dealing with things that had or have a negative impact on my life.  Removing people from my life that were unhealthy and bad influences.  To finally set myself free and heal.

This has been my journey, dealing with destructive issues of my past to save my present and future.  To experience that one brief moment of realization of all the possibilities of my life.  To see what my life can really be and to experience and explore so much more of life.  To open my mind to options I never even considered.  To live!

That is the exploration, the journey, that awaits me!

 

Live a Life

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Do That

What makes you happy, do that.
What brings adventure to your life, do that.
What heals your heart, do that.
What brings peace to your soul, do that.

But be warned, you can’t have happiness without sorrow, you can’t have adventure without risk, you can’t have healing without pain, and you can’t have peace without turmoil.

But still, do that for it is worth all you experience to get there.

Neal Stone.
The Final Transmission

The Final Transmission – Goodbye 2016

Here it is the end of 2016. What do I see for 2017 and beyond? The same old stuff…Hate, religious prejudice, political divide, racial tensions. There will be attacks, more hate, more riots and a repeat of all we’ve seen yesterday and today. We will point fingers and blame the other side and ignore our own influence.
 
History repeat itself because we never learn what works and what doesn’t. We never learn and can only hope future generations will, but it’s us they learn from. Sad.
 
It’s not a question if there is life out there in the universe, it’s a question of “Are we the best it could do?”. Are we? We could be!
 
If we are the first of life to appear in this universe then we are off to a sad and sorry start and can only hope we change and do better before we reach out to other worlds.
 
If we are the last of life in the universe then maybe we came from somewhere where they didn’t learn as well and are a sad and final testimony to the life that once existed. Or we were kicked out!
 
During the dark ages scientific development was delayed by centuries, at least 600 years. Imagine where we would be right now! Imagine where we would be if we stopped the hate, the prejudice, the religious and political divides, stopped expecting everyone to live by our rules, standards, religion and political ideals.
 
Imagine what 7 billion people could do if they worked together to improve, advance and support each other. We have the resources, the technology, and the ability to do so.
 
It starts and stops with us.
 
But we’re too busy wanting our political ideals to be the rule of the land. We’re too busy want our religious book to be the law. We’re too bust thinking our religion is what the country should follow. We’re too busy thinking our idea is better and reject all others solely over the fact the other person isn’t in the same political party as we are. We’re to busy fighting over something a simple as skin color. Why does my color determine what I am? IT DOESN’T!  Neither does religion or politics.
 
We’re too busy punishing over differences and not busy enough finding common ground to build on. Believe in my god, religion, political ideals or you’re not good enough.
 
Well then I guess I’m not good enough. And I’m proud of that! If I need to align with your list of what it takes to be valued, then I don’t want to be good enough for you!
 
We can do better. So why don’t we?
 
Neal Stone
The Final Transmission

The Final Transmission – Enough

Am I not enough?

Must I truly match and stand by your religion, politics, color, race, or other life preferences? Must I stand perfectly inline with you to matter, to be enough?

Is it not enough that I serve to better myself and my fellow man, to step out and make difference? Doesn’t’ the mere act of kindness, compassion an love count regardless of who I am?

Is not the world big enough for all of us to exist in our own way, to give in our own way and to be happy as we are, to be as one world improving upon it?

When is enough hatred, bigotry, bullying, and discriminating? When will we finally have enough of separation and loss, pain and hurt, rejection and stupidity?

Why isn’t it enough? Why am I not enough? What is enough? I ask you this!

Am I not enough? If you feel that I am not, then you are not enough and I’ve had enough of you!

Neal Stone
The Final Transmission

I Am Thankful

I posted the following to my Facebook today:

“I am thankful today for the healing journey I am on. Regardless of what happened in my past, my present and future outlook is bright. I had a few false starts when I got here to Mississippi, but now I am on the right track and moving forward full speed ahead.

I am thankful for those who chose to stick with me through this journey and growing point in my life. Some of you have in-boxed me and allowed me to share details and listened. Thank you all!”

Throughout my journey I have met many people.  Some have stayed even in my darkest hour while others have left for various reason, but mostly because they didn’t have the strength to deal or they just weren’t as supportive as they claimed and were in it for themselves.  It’s amazing how fast people will leave you when you decide to live and do what is right for you and no longer live how they want you too.

My ex-gf treated me and called me an option that could be easily gotten rid of (her own words) and when things got tough, sure enough she left.  I am happy about that really.

So many others have joined my journey and watched as I moved forward and grew as a person and worked on my healing.

I am thankful for my counselor who has given me the ear to lsiten and understand and the tools and encouragement to work on my life.  She has helped me see truth about areas in my life that I needed to see.  I have made great discoveries about myself and my past.

I am thankful for knowing my future is bright and I can move forward in the new me I have become.

I am of course very thankful for my readers here on my blog.

Happy Thanksgiving Ya’ll.

Truly Waking Up

So this last week I processed and looked closer at a major part of my life.   For my entire life I was under the belief that I had suffered, as a teen and child, from severe Epilepsy.  I had seizure, medication, doctor visits and all this to confirm that this was a true part of my past life.  I have always been proud of the fact I beat the disease in my later teens and was able to move on from it.

Then it happened.  Through counseling, family testimony and by my own memories I was able to discover that the truth is I never had Epilepsy, rather it was a misdiagnosis and as it turns out the truth was much deeper and sinister.

When I reviewed the facts things just didn’t add up about me having this disease including a large dosage of medications taken daily.  On top of that I took various memories, shared by family members, and life experiences and put them together to come up with the truth of what really happened in my life.  Once I pieced together these events and memories it became quite clear of what really happened and that I was abused rather than suffering a disease.  I knew all along about some abuse, but I also knew there was more that I haven’t recalled yet.

Once I came to the truth it was like the darkness lightened a little and I felt more free.  I am fortunate to have a great counselor who has let me find the truth on my own, who has helped me understand myself and come to terms with my past.

I now move forward with greater hope than before.

The Truth Is Out There…